Waiting, Waiting....

Waiting is never fun. Not when you are a kid or an adult. Unfortunately, waiting is often and longest and worst part of adoption.

We have been considered a "wating and available" family since Novemeber, and really, it's not that long. It's just seems that way. When we went through this is first time we were waiting for four months before we were matched. Currently it has been six months. But it's been a long six months for some reason.
We have been blessed to be associated with the best adoption agengy in the world! (Yes, I'm a bit bias!) We have built such an amazing level of comfort and trust with them that we even financially support the ministry and do whatever else we can to help. (I'm sure our family and friends want to run away sometimes when we start talking about it). All this to say, we by no means ever want to "jump ship" but honsetly it is tempting when we see pictures and hear stories of other little boys and girls that need families. It's our own impatience that messes with us more than anything else.

Last week at this time we got a phone call informing us that we were one of two couples that would be considered for a Africian American 3 month old that was being released from NICU where he had been since birth. Long story short, it was not our match. And since then we have found out some addtional details that prove to us, it was not the match for us. Even still, it's somewhat depressing.

This time around has been quite different than the first in the sense that last time, we had no idea how many birth moms viewed our profile before choosing our family. This time we have been up for match four times(that we know of) in the past four months, and that certainly makes things harder. That "pins and needles" feeling is awful.  And honestly, I can't help but think that it's going to be awhile before we are matched.

 As I was laying in bed the other night thinking about this, a verse I have known for what seems like forever ran through my head with new emphasis.  Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own undertstanding (NIV). If there is one thing I have learned in my 22 year jouney with God, he NEVER does things the way you think he will. Just because you think you have it fiqured out means nothing to him or his calendar. This coupled with my favorite verse which also popped in my head at the same time, Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine....( Ephesians 3: 20, NIV) tells me he must have something quite specific and special in mind for us. Although the waiting in driving us nuts, we are sure that years from now we will look back and see God's hand every little step of this journey.

In the mean time, keep praying for us. Tabetha is going to be getting a "big sister" in August as we are hosting a 16 year old exhange student named Mirabelle from China this next school year. So we will be busier than ever this coming year!!

Blessings to All,


Dawn